Carleton Elijah LaMar Temple - Sitio Web Conmemorativo En Línea

I don't share this side of me openly or pubicly anymore. I don't even know where to start at. It's so much that I could write out and express. But you already know that... Man it's 2022... Man 12 long years, 12 long years... Man... Remember daddy use to always talk to us about the flying cars and the rapture the Babylon what' was going to be he future? Man this world is crazy and has changed so much. Technology has taken over yep, and you would be right at the forefront of it with your smart sel! You would also be my go to guy if I had you here to go to. Asking you all the questions trying to understand shit and ready for a discussion on that topic lol! Man you were always sharp and up on things. Probably made me lazy cause I had a reliable trusted resource to go to and ask any silly questions that I wanted to and get the breakdown of an understanding about things like technology or current events or whatever! You made me complet dude. I missing having you around for more than one reason. Your my go to gut, my fix it our family "what's did Carleton say guy!" You was solid and trustworthy caring loved and real and honest. Man you actually cares about ppl and would out in the work to let them know that you care. You know you the type that go the long way with folks. You were truly a great brother and a girls best friend. Your wits and charisma was attractive to everyone. You turned it up⬆️ down, or medium level and let it sizzle as needed lol but you never turned it off cause you were true to who you were true to yourself in any given setting. Man I miss you bro! I miss you Man!!! I miss you! 

Well Our new year has begun and we are ironing out the definition and meaning of our 2022 new year. I have some God given revelations but not conclusion, conclusions just yet. But there coming I can feel the, there right there just gotta make room for new things to make it's way through

Man thinking of that Whitney Houston song "I Look to You"... its not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. Our New Year has begin our theme will be Live Love & Laugh. Each year when this time approaches I think about what you want us to be doing.  How could we celebrate together and make each other happy. I feel the pressure of pleasing you. Its like I'm trying to think for 2ppl and the other one has no input. Not because he don't care but because he's been silenced in the natural form. So the only way I can hear him is if and when I look within, listen to what my heart is telling me. Watch for the signs and things you send to me along the way. I see them and I smile I start believing in myself.  I'm on the right path now. I quickly get it and begin to press forward with the pleasure and confidence of knowing I'm pleasing you as well. I have learned when I follow my heart and my first mind things always seem to turn out the best. And I imgine you being there and enjoying our moment, our day, our time, and our New Year with me with a smile, "Saying Job Well Done." Love bro, my twin, my 1st friend.

How is it all this time has passed and it still doesn't feel real?  I feel like it's just been a really long time since I've seen you or talked to you and I don't like it.  I hope to see you again and give you a big hug and tell you I love you Face to face!  Regardless, i'm not gon stop praying for whoever did this to you.  I hope they get right!  I miss you bro!!!

I finally brought myself to write something in your memory, I know you would say "about time" wit you smart eleck self, but every time I started I could never finish. I still have words for you that are left unsaid. Its hard to see a person everyday for years and then suddenly 1 day your gone. You were my friend, you were the person I went to, to complain about things. Sometimes I didn't like the thing you had to says, sometimes you made me mad purposely, cause it made you laugh. I would block you from IM, and you would send me an email with LOL LOL written all over it, asking me to unblock you. If that didn't work you would drop me off Gummi bears when I was away from my desk. This was you way of making us cool again. The Friendship that you and I had was a true genuine friendship, that was broken apart too soon. In order to sort out all my feelings, heartache, and sorrow I had to write you a letter as if I were talking to you directly. That was when this tragedy first happened, but ever time I go back and read it I start cracking up (people probably be thinking I'm crazy), but Its like I can't seem to shake the memories that you and I have shared. I could go on forever writing and writing, but I'll end with this, I'll never forget you, you'll always be in my heart. I don't have to say I love you cause you already knew that.

Hey just sitting here remembering the good B-days, remember when we went to Vegas for our 22^nd B-day! Boy we had a blast you really showed me a good time. Remember how you were teaching me how to play Black Jack that was your stuff everybody has an addiction and that was yours! But you were good at what you did! And every time some man would give me there chips I cash out to give them to you. We had so much fun, how did a trip intended to be 5days end up being 7 cause I made us miss our plane going back to the Caesar Palace to get those Ted Baker shoes, you was so mad all weekend you let me have my way (as always) you planned the trip around me having a good time and you introducing me to Vegas baby. But you didn’t play about that 1 you was ready to come home but we had to stay an extra 2days. Hey remember this one; when we stayed thousands of miles away from each other we would send each other birthday cards in the mail just to let one another know no matter what I got you’re back far apart but never forgotten! I love you and people just don’t understand even those that you think would. Last year we had a blast too at Lucky Strike we celebrated our 26^th b-day it was real cool, I tried to throw something together for you last minute and it turned out cool. I enjoyed you; we knew to wear something blue without even telling each other. Remember when I went to Chicago for our 25^th and I called you crying, you said why you crying, I said cuz we get’n old and you wasn’t there I wished you was there with me. We talked and told each other Happy B-day and  so we made a pac that we will always treat our b-days like old times and make sure we was always together on that day no matter what. You made me feel so much better, you wasn’t having a good time either I remember you saying it was different and we had to figure out what we was gone do with the rest of our lives. I brought you that $250.00 planner back with the engraved pen with your initials (CELT baby) to match. You liked it, I felt bad that we wasn’t together. Well the hardest thing about today is I don’t have anyone to call and say Happy Birthday to. Well Happy New Year Baby! You know what I mean this is our annual. Time for review. Love you, oh and Happy B-day!

Peace out,

Twin83 love always